So Here it is Paid in Full

Men are the most confusing beings of the world. Not like I'm not a rumble of troubles myself.

But I guess I expect too much that I find myself in situations I can't perceive, like men who have women.

Or any other crazy situation that I seem to always put myself into with no problem. I have a big problem,

I can't fight it I have habit of pushing stuff away, good or bad. I listen to others and constantly push things away.

I am use to it, most of the people who know me, know it's hard, I don't express myself enough, I don't give enough.

I'm indecisive I fight like hell with the people who say they want to be here, I fight like hell with regular people.

Sometimes I fight too much, sometimes I fight too little, I give guys headache, that's what they tell me.

I'm use to this, this battle I have all the time with myself, with the men I talk to. I am use to having a cap on

Riding around as superwoman and I'm not use to give that up, I literally am scared too. Not being in control

Is one of the scariest position you can put me in. I don't play that stuff. Not at all, I can't fight the fact that I am the most intriguing person to have

as a friend and one of the scariest person to date. Lol I am use to it. It's crazy when you know that people wouldn't be able to care for you.

I am tired of this cap, I am tired of all this pressure I put on myself but I don't expect anything less. I am not ready I feel like this right now, I need to listen to my

Second mind. I need to explain this to you all better, but for now. I want you to believe that you are able to obtain love.

It's possible it may not be what you expect but you can do it. You can have it. The love and the compassion you want. But

You have to be ready to fight for what you want. Fight until you can't find another thing to do. I am fighting for something I am unsure of what.

But I will keep fighting until I find out.

 

Thinking Amazing Thoughts

-Whit.