So There is This Guy

Isn't that how all stories start… So there is this guy.

I was talking to a guy which I know wasn't right, who I know I would end up getting caught up with.

I started to like a big, no no, A Man with a plan, Nope we like those guys I mean a guy who has a woman.

Yupp I did it to myself, and the craziest thing about it is I can't keep my mind off of him.

He literally occupies my mind when I have nothing else to think about. I smell him sometimes which is weird but true.

I think about him, and I like him a lot, he holds me differently, talks to me differently.

It feels good. I love the attention but at the end of the day I really like him,

Or maybe I just like the idea of someone being here. I want the attention.

I want all the compassion and the hugs that I can get. My hugs are special,

My love is special, my thoughts, my mind, I don't share and since I did.

Here I am stuck in my big No No state. Saying no no, why did you hug, no no why did you kiss him,

No no why did you open up, why did you have conversations, and long talks and long walks.

Why did you do all of this, majority of it is because I didn't think I will fall hard.

Didn't think I would fall at all, I usually don't, I never find a guy that I can actually like. Feel comfortable liking

And now I am unsure of what to do. It's crazy when you genuinely like someone.

He probably doesn't feel any type of way, but I do. And that's crazy. I want him to hug me,

I do. I want him to share "idk" [eye Dee Kay] everything but he doesn't want that.

He has someone, I want to be that someone, but I'm not that someone.

I am a regular person, wanting a guy to be there. But I don't need a guy here.

I won't beg for a guy to be here. I will take my time.

And as Chrisette Michele Says ….

"Imma be ok
imma be ok
I'll survive, I'll be fine, I won't cry no way
imma be ok
imma be ok
don't you talk, I'll move on, baby walk away"

 

With something Deep inside My Heart

-Whit.