i have never

i have never been one to face up to my problems.

and at these moments i feel like i am falling apart every piece of myself

that i have helped build. is destroying. poetry might not mean alot to others

but it does to me. i'm tired of people saying they know me. knowing me is not

knowing my insecurities i voice my insecurities everything i see wrong with

myself i say. i try to find myself in others and maybe thats the reason is

hurting so much. confusing so much. i will not stand for anyone telling me they

know me. i hardly even know myself. i want to cut alot of things out right now

because i am not ready for anything as i want to be. i am trying to hold against

all of this turmoil. but to be honest my feet are tired my heart is tired. i'm tired

of fighting everywhere i have to go. to build a place. i want my own place

where i can feel accepted by myself. i'm so tired of pleasing others. i cant

even write poetry anymore and i don't know why.

but the one thing i seem like i always fight with myself is for my place. my rightful

place somewhere. i want to go a place where only people go. where a place where only people

go. no stress [and yes i just remixed that song]

i want my happiness. so i will end this on happiness cause it seems to deep.

i will listen to i love your smile right before i go to bed. clean the house in the

morning and work on me.