i have never been one to face up to my problems.
and at these moments i feel like i am falling apart every piece of myself 
that i have helped build. is destroying. poetry might not mean alot to others 
but it does to me. i'm tired of people saying they know me. knowing me is not 
knowing my insecurities i voice my insecurities everything i see wrong with 
myself i say. i try to find myself in others and maybe thats the reason is 
hurting so much. confusing so much. i will not stand for anyone telling me they 
know me. i hardly even know myself. i want to cut alot of things out right now
because i am not ready for anything as i want to be. i am trying to hold against
all of this turmoil. but to be honest my feet are tired my heart is tired. i'm tired 
of fighting everywhere i have to go. to build a place. i want my own place 
where i can feel accepted by myself. i'm so tired of pleasing others. i cant 
even write poetry anymore and i don't know why. 
but the one thing i seem like i always fight with myself is for my place. my rightful
place somewhere. i want to go a place where only people go. where a place where only people 
go. no stress [and yes i just remixed that song] 
i want my happiness. so i will end this on happiness cause it seems to deep. 
i will listen to i love your smile right before i go to bed. clean the house in the 
morning and work on me. 
 
 

 
 
 
 
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